My Life Sucks - Big Time … !

What is this?…depression again?
Why am I lying here on my bed in my dark room?
Why do I feel phobic and can’t step out of the house?
Why do I hate every poeple?
Why can’t i just be happy?
why?…..I tell you why… Cuz I have deep depression! It took over my life since i can remember.. I can’t control my feelings.. I keep crying for nothing. I can’t do anything!!.. I’m young and i’m blocked from being alive! I’m young and i’m living it under a shell!!…My life so suck I could just kill someone for a better one. I don’t have a job, cuz i hate everything and i can’t stop that feeling… I don’t have friends, cuz they would avoid me since i’m so down..i’m no fun. I don’t have anybody who loves me…because i’m ME.
I can’t take this anymore….
My life Suck, i’d rather die.