My Life Sucks - Big Time … !

Well…my life sucks. My mom died in 2005 at the age of 43. I was only 12. Since then, my sister has gotten divorced, my family is at each others throats most of the time, our house is a wreck, and I look like The Grinch. I’ll admit, I’m a little young to be posting shit on this site, but I feel isolated and hopeless most of the time. I’m a loser at school, still no girlfriend, and have turned to smoking weed to solve my problems. Its worked a little, but i still have this feeling that I don’t belong alive. I have given up hope inside. Life sucks.