My Life Sucks - Big Time … !

Everyday of my barely livable life, I wake up take a bath and do my hair. Too bad its for nothing because my life SUCKS! Every day since i was a young lad i was diagnosed with ADHD(ATTENTION DEFICIT HPYER DISORDER) which according to modern science makes me unable to concentrate and very hyper. For years i took the medicine daily but nothing worked. I had outburts in class like playing with pencils loudly and causing a loud distrubance. I never payed attention so as a result i never really learned anything. Come 6th grade i was still acting out. During that summer i realized i needed to start over. So the beginning of 7th grade was great for me. I had honor roll for the first time in my life. But during the 2nd quarter i made friends with the wrong people. We tormented our teachers to the point where i was actually thrown out of a class permanently for calling a teacher a \”transvestite\”. I barely passed the 7th grade. Now here comes 8th grade i was still rowdy and still caused mischief like a fool. During my 8th grade career i was constantly tormented daily with accusations of being \”gay\”retarted\”stupid\”ugly\” and it drove to me depression. I spoke openly about suicide and a concerned friend contacted my school. I spoke about suicide 3 times. I was admitted to a hospital where i had a phychic evalution.They shoved a needle in my arm to check for drugs. I had to urinate in a cup(which i may add spilled over in the bathroom and i had to clean it up myself). After that incident i started to try to make a positive outlook on life but i couldn\’t. Here i am 9th grade no friends no gf nothing. I sit home all day after school and play xbox. Everyday i cry myself to sleep because i realize that i am a fucking loser. My grades sucks. My life sucks. Not to mention that it seems that everyone talks down to me like i have a fucking down syndrome. I seem to do everything wrong in my life and that everything that can go wrong does go wrong. I can barely stand it. I dont see my self in the future suceeding in life infact i see myself dead before i hit 16. Thanks world.