So I’ve been sitting here thinking about why I go to movies alone, hate just the idea about being around people and hate women in general. It’s called a life experience, and I’ve had many of these.
Nothing could explain how much I hate people, except for the massive iggnorance we allow these days, and the ability for this iggnornace to breed more iggnornace. I have days where I want to set a welfare trap and round up all of the scum in this world, and incinerate them from the face of this earth and gene pool. These thoughts are only brought up due to the fact that I am an intelligent person, but unfortunately I haven’t yet met another one of me for a long time.
As for my way of relationships. Lets just say, I have been single and alone for 6 years now. I can’t help to think I’m going to end up that rich lonely bachelor, who never gets married and never has kids. It’s a fear that I deal with every day. Another problem I have is the lack of emotion I have for many things, I never cry, I hardly smile, I don’t frown, I just have this cold, dead look in my face. This look is hardly broken with a smile, and wish it would.
I just want to be happy, but it seems that day is either way down the road, or non-exsitent.
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I lived in anger and silent unrest for many years. Only more anger came back my way. But it came to a point when I decided to FORCE upon myself a change, not convince, I mean force, since convincing myself with all my reasoning and logic would not get me anywhere. It was a day by day thing, and after sometime , I started to see things differently.
Force tolerance, try to live it ,surely you are an intelligent person, do not think or keep thinking , life is passing me by , I am not getting married, no kids on the way.
To marry someone you need to meet someone first, but thinking that way will not help you relate to others. You mention something about the unhappy look on your face, and I am sure it must be very noticeble to others. Talk to people of every kind from every source, we all have something to share or learn from each other.
Do you really think, honestly and forgive me for saying this, you would make a good dad right now with all this anger in you? What will the kid learn from the way you are now?
It is a very good start you acknowledge something is not right with the way you are living now.
Once you have helped yourself and done your best, the rest of the world will regard you with different eyes and things will chance. Only then good things will come by.
Intelligent? Your countless grammar and spelling errors make me think not.
Stop wasting so much energy hating people that do nothing to you. Mind your own business. If you get too bored, you can always read a book and polish up on those English skills! You know it couldn’t hurt.
Oh, and by the way, it’s a GOOD thing there aren’t a lot of people like you. A really, really good thing.