Best mate of 20 yrs and me slowly drifting apart after business failed. Had my life planned out and in last year has turned to shit and left me jobless, pennyless and with no real friends. The hole just seems to be getting deeper and deeper and i cant see a way out. 5 yrs wasted for a kick in the teeth and a shitload of debt, thanks alot mate
Monthly Archive for April, 2009
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No one in my family likes me. some times i wish that i where dead or never born life is so hard and unfair. Am only 15 and no one likes me they are always saying that they love but they i know they really don’t what i there to life and why am i in so much pain and why can’t no one hear me crying but that’s how life is. I pray everyday and nigth that the lord will take me from my pain and just let me die in my sleep no one is willing to figth for me or to love me so i am giving up the figth i can’t take it any long i can’t keep hoping nand praying that some one would love me when they will never love so hear it is I GIVE UP |
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So I’ve been sitting here thinking about why I go to movies alone, hate just the idea about being around people and hate women in general. It’s called a life experience, and I’ve had many of these. Nothing could explain how much I hate people, except for the massive iggnorance we allow these days, and the ability for this iggnornace to breed more iggnornace. I have days where I want to set a welfare trap and round up all of the scum in this world, and incinerate them from the face of this earth and gene pool. These thoughts are only brought up due to the fact that I am an intelligent person, but unfortunately I haven’t yet met another one of me for a long time. As for my way of relationships. Lets just say, I have been single and alone for 6 years now. I can’t help to think I’m going to end up that rich lonely bachelor, who never gets married and never has kids. It’s a fear that I deal with every day. Another problem I have is the lack of emotion I have for many things, I never cry, I hardly smile, I don’t frown, I just have this cold, dead look in my face. This look is hardly broken with a smile, and wish it would. I just want to be happy, but it seems that day is either way down the road, or non-exsitent. |
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You think your job sucks. Check out this guy’s blog http://myjobsucksbigtime.blogspot.com |
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You think your job sucks. Check out this guy’s blog http://myjobsucksbigtime.blogspot.com |
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Why cant life be better for me? I know I should appreciate with what i got, but sometimes i wish it could get better. People see a broken girl inside of me and they ask “Whats wrong?” and i simply reply “Nothing…nothing at all.” But inside im screaming inside! Then people say “Oh she’s perfect.” But honestly, im not. Looks decieve people, im the only one who can tell you is perfect and who’s not. And im sure as hell know that im not. Im the broken girl waiting for something to change. I hate living this way, i just want to run away. But even if i do that, my problems wont go away, so whats the point of running away? I dont know. Maybe its just me, im Kaytlyn. I’m fifteen years old with a broken heart. |
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