My life Sucks…Im 44 and alone…I haven’t been in love in over twenty years..after a four year relationship my soulmate (at least thats what she said) walked out of my life without so much as a goodbye..that really sucked.
too top it off I still see her around
and it puts a knot in my stomach. Shes married with kids and it hurts knowing
that.Our relationship was so emotionally
draining.My heart broke and my soul cracked. It took a while for me too get going in life again but my life isn’t what I thought it would be..Other women have came and went but it didn’t ease my pain..My ex girlfriend always acted like I was the one for her..telling me she loved me and always will..would never hurt me (but she betrayed my trust
many times. I moved in with her (her Idea)against my better judgement because
She wanted to.I realize now she was wanting to get away from her overprotecteive Mother and I was just a way and means for her to do that..I was her first boyfriend ever so I knew in my head that she was in love with me
because of that reason.Anyway she cheated on me and it hurt me so much
I just couldn’t deal with the pain
and I kicked her out immediatly.Well I was so deeply in love that after a month
we got back together and that was my mistake.I wish I was strong enuff not to
do that but I wasn’t.We lasted too more years and then she left.I came home from work and she was gone…too this day there is hole in my heart I can’t seem too fall in love with anyone.Women are attracted to me as Im told Im a very
good looking guy women have propositioned me many times over the years and one night stands were the norm
Alls that did was make me think All women were like this and whats the point of falling in love She’ll just hurt me too.This really sucks for me
as Id rather be in love when making love
(its sweeter that way).Being alone in this world when you know there is someone for you out there relly sucks
I got alot of love to give but no one
to give it too but Im damaged goods and don’t think its in the cards for me.So
I sink myself into my job ( Im self employed)But it doesn’t fill the void
in my life.If your married and think life sucks..try goin it alone sometime
and you will see that goin thru life
like this really sucks.I wish I had
what I don’t have ( a wife and family)
Its really what life is about.Success
doens’t bring happiness if you have no one to share it with..
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Sometimes I feel like I’ve come so far and then have to take about 5 steps
back, life isn’t as fair as I thought, i was so greatful and happy and everything came crashing around me. It has nothing to do with money just how fast life can change and learning to take from each day. I learned my ideas were not the same as his but thats okay because his were stupid and I will make it. My lessons were hard but maybe thats what i needed!