My Life Sucks - Big Time … !

I went through my whole life being rejected. Finally i fall inlove with someone that falls inlove with someone else.
So i completely hated life..And as if things couldnt get worst, i meet a guy at work that ends up being the first guy to give 2 cents bout me, then i realize what a douche he really is but like always girls are attracted to ass’s and i cant let him ( the poisin) go. We end up getting married. The bastard cheats on me. Leaves me with a child. Now we’re getting divorced and i just turned 21. Im living with my parents. I dont feel like an adult. I feel like a 11 yr old girl. I cant run my own life. I cant move out cuz i dont have a job. And even though ive been trying. Nothin seems to work out.